User blog:AnitaG./The Sad Truth- A.K.A. My Retirement Announcement

Hey, guys. Hopefully you know who I am if you're reading this. This message is to announce my retirement. I know that I've only been to the wiki for like six months but I don't have any strenght to go on anymore...as a writer. I promise that I will still be an active member of this community, I will read and comment...just not write anymore. I know that a lot of have seen this coming and I am really sorry about this, I am utterly disappointed in myself that I'm doing this. But I just...when I came here, the reason I write the seasons was that I enjoyed doing it. However, somewhere along the sixth episode of Gobi, I started feeling like this was more of a duty than it was a hobby. I wanted to change my format to just short summaries but then you guys didn't agree with it and then I got more and more drenched emotionally and mentally, it just became more of a work than something I would do in my free time. That's the reason that I'll be leaving this community shortly. I WILL finish Ecuador, but that will be the last season I'll make on this wiki. To me, it's way better to finish four good seasons rather than push yourself over the edge to make fifty horribly written seasons. If you still ARE interested in my fanon, I created a wiki that I will give you a link for down there. On that wiki, I will finish the boot orders for the seasons, the challenge tables and voting tables as well as short summaries for the episodes so that you know what was going on. I will still be here until I finish Ecuador which could still take a really long time. Give me a week to see if I won't change my decision because truth is, I find this to be extremely sad to myself. But after a week, I'll delete all my seasons and will ask Ian to take my admin rights. Don't worry, I'll still be supporting you, I just feel like I'm losing myself to make something rather for you than for myself. I hope you all understand. Call me a coward, call me bad writer, but I just...I am getting more frustrated per episode.

So with all that said, I am leaving this all open if I did want to come back. One day, I will maybe want to try this again. If that day comes, I will do some side-series, probably in the summer. But this is my farewell. I thank everybody who's helped me, who's supported me throughout my two-season struggle and I really hope that you can all be my friends. Ian, if you're reading this, don't delete anything now, I will take care of it myself in a week, as I said. To all of you, you've been an amazing community. This is not a goodbye, just a bye and see you next time. :P

With a broken but full heart, AnitaG.