User blog comment:MightyUke416/Bell: Let's Talk Day/@comment-28913090-20190130195337

I have not read any of the other "Mental health blogs" on the wiki but for some reason I wanted to check this one out. I'll be honest in the way that I am happy to not have any large problems with mental health aside from my last year elementary, which was easily the worst year of my life but to understand sort of how it all started I sort of want to recap what has happened. So, in  eight year there was one guy who everyone was calling gay and we all made fun of him and I was the one who alway started it, after some time he told a psychologist that we had at school and she talked to me about the effect it can have on people. But I totally was ignoring her and I continue to bully the guy until the year end. When it was summer vacation, I had horrible nightmares about watching him kill himself and I barely could sleep during July and I felt really guilty until the point where I couldn't handle it. So, I reached out to him and learned that he isn't that horrible but I just wanted to make sure he wouldn't think about suicide (AKA I was selfish Asshole and I admit that)

So, the ninth year started and after new year, all my "friends" started calling Fat Fag, just cause I was nice to a gay person, this wasn't even the worst part, the worst part was when even kids that I didn't even knew would call me fat and gay. I pretended that I wasn't bother by it but at that time I was eating as litlle as I could. I only ate in front of my parents but if they were not home, I didn't eat anything and this soon broke me and I told my problems to my only friend and he really helped me to relize that what I am doing is bad for my health and thanks to him I started eating normally.

Another bad thing that happend was that everyone told me that they know someone from the High school that I am now studying at and they told me that they will make sure that those people will bully me even at high school. So, the first day I was really scared and worried that the same will be happening even at High School and to my suprise nothing has happened. Now I have an amazing group of friends and I almost regained all of my confidence back and I am having way more healthy life style. The only problem is that I often blame gays for what happened to me because if I would be an asshole to that gay guy, people would like me cause everyone started calling me those names after I started being nice to him and I know that it is really lame exuse to hate community for something that they didn't do but it's for me, sometimes, it's really hard to understand.

In other words, I am not proud of those last two years at elementary, I bullied someone and then I was nice to them for my own selfish reasons. The most important thing is that people truly don't think what they are causing by saying those things like I did to that guy and that Mental Health is really overlooked topic and I am glad that I am in much happier place.

So, thank you Uke for making it.