User blog:MDVolcano/I Can't Do This Anymore

Hey guys, I'm here after thinking this over for a while. You're probably gonna expect me to say that I'm gonna cancel another season, which you are right but there is more to it this time. I'm here to say something that I've actually been thinking about for a while. I've decided to quit survivor fanon writing for an indefinite time. I'm just so sick of failing and kicking myself over and over again that I don't wanna put myself through it anymore. Writing these fanons are just not fun to me anymore. And just how I mentally feel about it is just negative so I'm just gonna have to stop for my own mental sake. So I'm sadly not gonna try again for a real long written out season ever again.

The Next part to this is am I gonna stay around the community and still be active? I honestly don't know either. I will read fanon that I'm interested in and leave comments on how I feel. But I gonna stay in contact with only people I feel genuine friendships with. I won't say exactly why, but let's just say I feel very sad when talking to other people I considered more acquaintances. I'm on the fence about leaving the SFW Discord but that is a decision I will make soon.

I do feel a little sad having to leave this place but after trying and failing to write seasons for two years, I just can't do it anymore. But let me go onto more happy stuff. My blog season I'm working on with Trisha is still most likely gonna happen and I'm still for the most part gonna put my all into it. Plus despite this being one of the main parts of my life for two years, I'm actually finding other stuff that I'm finding interest in, like writing stories and, as you've probably seen, Photoshop. I'm also still making Big Brother Fanons but that's probably not gonna change a lot because only like 1% of you actually write there.

Well that's really all I have to say for now. It does sadden me to have to write this but I just wanted y'all to know I did have fun being apart of this community, for the most part, and I will miss all of you very much. I will post the boot order for Peru in like a week. Bye guys.